{just some thoughts}

So today is my 26th Birthday. And I keep thinking that I am still 19 and can party all week long. I think this year I have come to the realization how boring Birthday's become the older you get.
I woke up this morning around 7:30, which is really a good thing but wished it could have been 8:30. I got the kids breakfast, have done three loads of laundry, made my own cupcakes, done the dishes, picked up the apartment, played with the boys, will be babysitting all afternoon, going to mutual tonight, etc.
I don't know why my mindset is to have this amazing day. Because really, it has been a good day. My boys have been fabulous, with very few tantrums. I've received many birthday wishes from family and friends. I got some fun cards in the mail today with little goodies inside them.
I love that I get to spend the day with my boys. I do wish that Jake could be around, but so far this has been a good Birthday.
I have decided though, that maybe my birthday just isn't going to be as awesome as my husband and boys are going to be. Mostly because I am the one planning everything and put up the sign and make the cake...you get my drift. I still love birthdays and always pull the "it's my birthday week card" when Jake's around but I'm just a little sad that I am at the stage in my life when it isn't all about me anymore. You can all call me selfish but I know some of you are thinking the same thing.
So, now that I am moving up in numbers, I guess I can just be content with a normal day. Although, don't think that I am not for a really fun day with no kids, a day spa with massage, or my mom still making my favorite dinner for my birthday.....OK, I'm really getting carried away.
Just know that this isn't a sob story, I'm just saying what I feel at this moment. I really have felt a lot of love so far today with family and friends. I maybe that's all that I need. It makes a person feel good to have others thinking of them. So HAPPY BIRTHDAY Jill Rabe!!!! And yes, I've sung to myself already today.